For now

At night he reaches over to make sure I am not too cold. I am never too cold and he always hogs the blankets anyway, but he always asks, always reaches out his arm to make sure I am ok. I am - for now. So is he.

We’ve finally been able to settle into a routine of sorts - morning coffee, lunch together, nightly snuggles. He is more confused more often, but also realizes it. He spends a few hours a day mixed up, and a couple more talking about how weird it was to feel that way. He often apologizes for his “insanity” , so we spend a lot of time reassuring him that this disease is not him - that the things he does right now will not be his legacy. We know who he IS, the cancer is the insanity - not him. He is our Rico, he always will be.

We had a good friend stop by to play guitar and sing for him, his good friend Tom is always nearby for coffee and visits, the kids pop in after work to have dinner with him and tell him about their days, Scrappy snuggles as often as he can. We are just getting to savor these days with him. Nikas birthday is Wednesday and Rico got to deliver the big news - the axolotl she’s been wishing for since she knew they existed is now living in an aquarium in her newly painted bedroom (another early birthday gift we had promised her months ago, and my first solo project in this house - ever). We’re hoping to celebrate more this week, we’re glad Rico is here to help her eat that cake.