He always leaves a shirt on the bed.

But not this time.

When he has to leave - when we have to be apart, he takes one of his favorite t-shirts, sprays it with his cologne and leaves it on my pillow so I can sleep with him at night. It has been like that for over 7 years.

There is no t-shirt right now. There wasn't time.

So I just hold his pillow and pray.